Wednesday, December 22, 2010

My Dear One is Gone

My heart is so heavy with grief today.  Yesterday morning I slept a little late.  We were expecting the Vet at 8a.m. and I jumped up and called to Alan.  No answer.  Went to the bathroom and looked out the window.  The lights were not on in the barn.  I went into the living room and there he was, dead in the recliner, having had a heart attack in the night.  It is such a shock, and I am somewhat numb, but so grateful for my community of friends and loved ones who have embraced me.  I looked outside yesterday and there was a City worker and about a dozen kids cleaning my yard of all the storm waste that has been there for a couple of weeks.  Another friend brought a crockpot of soup, and another vacuumed and washed my kitchen floor.  My nieces brought my son Chad up yesterday, and my son Michael and DIL and SIL arrived today.  So much to do.  I feel like I have lead in my body.  You won't be hearing from me for awhile.  I have so many decisions to make. Thanks to all of you for your wonderful comments and support on Facebook.

34 comments:

John'aLee said...

Oh I am so, so sorry! I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. You will be in my prayers dear one.

Tonya said...

so so sorry Linda, I wished I was closer and could come over and do something to help...BIG HUGS

Margi said...

ohh Linda, I am so very, very sorry for your loss. It is the exact way we discovered my loving father and it just broke all of our hearts. I know I'm a long way away but if you need a shoulder, an ear, or even just someone to sound off at please feel free. Big, big hugs and lots of healing prayers winging their way to you from mid MI!

Nicki Lundeen said...

I am sorry to hear about your loss. It is so hard to lose a loved one. I know first hand that there is nothing I can say to ease your pain right now, but you are in prayers and thoughts. God bless you and your family during this difficult time.

Sara said...

Linda, I am so sorry to hear this sad, sad news. I wish I were close enough to help you in person...but, know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...

Love ya,

Sara

MissMary said...

My dear friend, you have my heart and my prayers and my deepest sympathy. I cannot imagine what you must be feeling, but please know you are not alone, not even in this most difficult time. Thank you for letting us all know, and thank you for accepting our support as we reach out to you. <3

Debi said...

Linda, I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

ooglebloops said...

Your bloggy friends have circled you in a big cyber hug right now, I wish we could do more....................

Gene Black said...

Linda, you have been on my heart all day. Know that prayers are being said for you and the boys. I pray that you are blessed with an unexplainable peace and comfort.

Susan said...

Linda, Know you are loved and in some many hearts around the USA. I hope you can feel all the love and warm wishes sent your way.
Hugs Susan

fabriquefantastique said...

What a dreadful, unexpected shock...the blood drained from my face as I read. Do try to keep up your blog at a later date, I enjoy it.
My thought are with you and your family....Jan

Ursula said...

Words, however kind, can't mend your heartache: but those who care and share your loss wish you comfort and peace of mind. May you find strength in the love of family and in the warm embrace of friends.
thoughts and prayers

(((((((big)))))))

Jorge said...

Linda,
When Megan called about Alan, I was in shock, There is nothing I can say to ease your pain, but use the strength of your family and friends at this difficult time. You are in are prayers and thoughts.

Zlaty said...

I am so sorry for your lost! I read about it on Pat's blog. I am thinking of you! Hugs!

Joanne Lendaro said...

Linda, I can't begin to imagine the pain in your heart...sending thoughts an prayers. Hugs from New Hampshire....

Puddles of Grace said...

Dear Linda,
I am so sorry to read of your loss this afternoon. You will(are)in my prayers. May God Bless you and your family, esp as you end this year and begin the next...
~Charlene

Piecefulafternoon said...

Wishing I could heal the hurt - it breaks my heart. Love and hugs!!!

Kaye said...

Dearest Linda, my Heart is heavy with pain for you and your family. What a shock for you, I am praying for Gods Mercy and His Help in Healing and acceptance fOR you. You are indeed Loved by a great deal of people and we are all pRaying FoR you. If you feel the need or just want to talk please e mail me. God Bless You All

Sharyn Mallow Woerz said...

Oh Linda, I am so sorry for your loss. Words cannot convey.
Holding you in the pocket of my heart, Sharyn

Julie said...

Linda, I'm so sorry. Please know you are in my thoughts. It's very shocking. Take care of yourself.

Tangos Treasures said...

((((((((((((((Linda))))))))))))))))))))

Pat said...

There is really nothing I can add to what has already been said by all the others. You are in my heart and prayers, too. I am glad you have such good neighbors, friends, and family around you at this terribly difficult time. We understand you won't be blogging for a bit, but when you need us, we will be here, okay? Hugs and loving prayers going out across the miles to you.

SilentGoddess said...

Linda,
Paul, Cody and I are so saddened to hear about Alan's passing. Paul worked with Alan at David Kehle's back in the late 1990's. We always loved Christmas time because Alan would make Buckeye ball cookies and we loved them so. He was such a kind and gentle soul.
Please know that we are thinking of you and the boys during the tough time. Much love to you all.
~Laney, Paul and Cody Clark

teresamnj said...

I'm so very sorry. You will be in my prayers.

Tracey said...

The words I am sorry are not enough. I will be thinking of you during this time and sending lots of love your way.

Crispy said...

Oh Linda, I'm so so sorry!! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Gentle Hugs are being sent your way,

Crispy

Cathy K said...

Dear, dear Linda! You are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank goodness your family and friends are there for you. We are here for you too! ((((HUGS))))). Take care of yourself and may you find peace and strength. Cathy

Stephanie said...

Linda, I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray God gives you peace and your family is there for you during this time of grief. My prayers and thoughs are with you.

Caro said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Micki said...

Linda,
I am so sorry for your loss, and my heart goes out to you. My prayers go with you!
Micki

Lindabee said...

Oh my dear Linda B., how my heart is breaking for you. I can't imagine your pain, and will pray that God will give you comfort and strength.

Pie Lady Pat said...

So very sad, Linda. I'm so sorry.

Barb said...

I am sooooooooooooooo sorry, I have been such a bad blogger when this was going on and so today I read your blog and I am sitting here crying for you. My love and prayers are coming your way....so very sorry. It is so good to hear that you are not alone and you have so many people concerned for you and keeping you fed, even tho you probably don't feel like eating.

Marls said...

Oh Linda. So, so sorry for your enormous loss.
Sending big cyber hugs your way.