I have been trying to post here for a week now, but don't like to do so without at least ONE picture. Blogger does not want to download any of my pics!! I don't get it. Does anyone have a clue?
So, writing seems to sooth my soul, and I have the need for some soothing. Next Sunday marks the 40th wedding anniversary of my deceased DH and me. I try so hard to be strong, and I continue to insist that dates and family traditions don't mean anything to me. But here is the truth: Your heart and your mind are in control. I have been crying for three days now. Even knowing why does not help. I guess it's just another stage of grief. I am so thankful for the support and prayers of my friends, and especially my friend Char who has been widowed for 6 years. She's been here and can guide me. Sometimes it hits like a sledgehammer, others it's just creeping in, lying below the surface.
I know this will pass. I know I am strong. I also know I am painfully lonely.