Showing posts with label saddness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label saddness. Show all posts

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Sigh

So many days I have sat here at the computer, staring at the blankness of the screen, and trying to think of something to say.  I'm going to try today.
My holidays are a blur since I was still in shock and numbness.  I spent most of my time with my kids, and went to several parties with family, but found I would just doze off if I could.  Below is a light hearted picture of my son and his wife with the hats I made them in their school colors.  I still haven't finished Chad's hat.



Once I returned home, the casseroles started arriving.  I am unable to make a decision to eat anything, much less prepare it, so this is such a joy to receive.  My alpaca association had instigated a Casserole Brigade, and I will apparently receive two a week from different members.  I've had to buy freezer containers to divide it all up in and freeze.  Now it looks like I won't have to cook for at least two months.
The shock and numbness is gone, but now it hurts more.  Sometimes I am just plain scared.
Last Sunday I discovered black mold growing up my living room walls, so called in a contractor.  By next week I will have two new windows which will be a terrific addition.  I've also bought myself a few new peices of furniture.
Blessings come my way everyday.
I've sold 9 of my alpacas, and may have a buyer for the remaining.
I don't know what I will do about the market, since I have to commit by Jan. 30th.

I thank you all for your loving care and your big cyber hugs, and leave you with this verse:
I have this feeling
there's one more star
up in the sky tonight.
And even though it's far away,
its brightness and warmth still
reach us here to make the night
a little less dark.